sunday funday.

We had a great sunday! Lots of sunshine.

Hope your weekend was as good as ours!

xx

(does ANYone know why my followers box isn't working??)

birthday. (zekey)

Today is a very special day!

It was Zekey's third birthday! We started off the morning with a big happy birthday song and a treat party, and ended it with fresh puppy birthday cookies.

Some of you may think I am crazy for celebrating my dogs birthday like a real human birthday, but I love him like I would love a real human so that's how I celebrate him. :)

Mommy loves you Zekey Pekey.

Happy 3rd birthday, bubby!

friday's letters.

Dear Husband, Thanks for not questioning me eating chips and salsa at 1:00 this morning.. It was a rough night. Dear Alabama, I have been counting down the days until I see you and all my friends & Michael's family.. but your tagalong anxiety has already started invading my brain. Dear Rain, Thank you for knowing coming to visit this week. Rain on the beach is the best. Dear Kim Walker-Smith Pandora Station, thank you for never disappointing. Dear Printer, I have no idea why you all the sudden print in mini letters but you're making me angry. Dear Husband, You have a huge alfalfa hair sticking up in your hair. :)

HAPPY FRIDAY, THANK YA LAWD!

xx

ps. does anyone know why my followers box isn't working and how to fix it?

loss.

It's 11:25 on Thursday night and I can't sleep. I've been tossing and turning since 9:00 and it's brought me to tears. I hate being upset. I hate losing people I love. I hate it.

I miss my Oma & Papa more than anything in this world. I have never known a man who loved a woman so much and I have never known a bigger Alabama fan. I've never known a woman with such a sassy spirit but still be the sweetest lady I have ever known. I miss them so badly it literally makes my heart ache and tears stream down my face as I'm writing this post.

I'm probably not making any sense, but this is the best I can do for now. I laid in my bed with my puppies snuggled up to me and michael on the other side, but I could only silent cry for so long. So, I did the only thing I knew to do. Came to type it all out with a wet face and shaky hands.

How does my mom do it? I hurt this bad and they're my grandparents. How badly does she hurt knowing she can't call her parents just to talk? I have no idea what I would ever do if I lost my parents. They mean more to me than they will ever know.

I have so much anxiety over losing people close to me. I worry more than I think the normal person does, but I can't help myself. It literally brings an ache to my heart when I even imagine the thought of losing the ones I love.

I love you Oma & Papa. I miss you so much and I wish I could hug you one last time. I'm sorry if I ever made you not feel worth my time when I was a selfish teenager and whined about spending a Saturday afternoon at the nursing home to see you. I'm sorry I chose to get married 8 hours away and you couldn't be there for my special day. If I could change it all I would. I told Michael just yesterday I would change it to have you there. I love you. So so much.

imagine.

Do you ever just sit and imagine what your life is going to be like in the next few years? I do.

I find myself, more times than not, sitting and imagining the little boutique I will some day have, the people that will come in my store and what it will be like. What kind of clothes I will sell and what kind of music will I play. If my store will represent me as a person.

I imagine whenever we have kids what their names will be and why we will choose that name. If their spirit will be sensitive like mine or tough like Michael's. Will they have hazel eyes or blue.

I love to imagine. And I think God gave us an imagination for a reason. But in the midst of all the crazy things that are going on in my mind (sometimes all at once!), sometimes I forget to stop and be thankful for what I have now.

I have the most hard-working, loving, gorgeous husband in the world. I have three furbabies that love me no matter my mood and are happy to see me when I walk in the door. I have a job, a family, sweet friends, food to eat, and a home.

I need to soak it in more.

I'm blessed.

xx

so what?

So I haven't participated in this blog hop in a while but whatevs. SO WHAT! ;)

So what if I worked out this morning and didn't wash my hair afterwards. I was pressed for time, okay? (pressed for time meaning, chillin' in the bath eating my breakfast..)

So what if I'm debating on getting a Starbucks cookie and using 'cramps' as an excuse.

So what if my husband reads this and realizes I am milking the whole 'cramping' deal.

So what if I get a little fiesty when people call work and immediately tell me their life story. I JUST ANSWER THE PHONE PEOPLE.

Happy Wednesday. Thought it was Thursday.

Bummer.

xo

weekend.

Saturday Michael attended a song writer's workshop at church and I stayed home with the dogs. When he got done we went and got lunch, drove around, went shopping, and enjoyed the beautiful day! When we were done we came home and relaxed the night away.

Sunday we went and got breakfast at Starbucks and then spent the day at the beach! It was beautiful. The water was clear and the skies were blue. Couldn't have asked for a better day to end the weekend! We ended our day with (healthy) homemade tacos and an early bedtime.

Hope your weekend was as relaxing as ours!

Happy Monday.